Hello everyone!

I t s M y B i r t h d a y T o d a y
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I intend to have a brilliant day, even waking up a good hour and a bit earlier than I usually do, for no point whatsoever. How spiffingly cool is that? Last night I went to see the christmas lights being turned on and ended up missing it because me, ~CrimsonHonour and ~Sorrow-of-the-crow are all douchebags.

But I still love us all.

Today I am hopefully, going to travel around, chit chat to all my family, realise how much of an ass hole I have been throughout my year of being 18 and grow up. It's time for change, and it will be a happy one! I can't wait for the rest of today and the rest of my life.

No matter what happens, No matter how bad life gets! It's time to deal with things... and enjoy the finer points of life! It's time to smile when I'm sad, and laugh for the sake of laughter! And cosplay... because I want to and am selfishly obsessed like that.

[EvenIfIDoComplainLaterOnWe'reOnlyHumanPeople]

The last point is the Harlow meet up. It seems that only I am attending it, because ~Sorrow-of-the-crow and ~CrimsonHonour can't make it. -cries and wails and throws two hissy fits and a half- Oh well, at least I'll be so awesomely happy to see ~Paz1o1 again!

And this would be the end of usual updates! <3



This is either going to be an ultra long journal, or an ultra short one depending on how tired I get. But the point is, I'm the kind of person that thrives on complimenting others. And I haven't been doing that lately and it upsets me. So, I thought I'd do a little dedication journal under my usual updates.

I L o v e Y o u

~Paz1o1 is a very special and close person to me, so special and close in fact, that I've never had the privilege of ever saying and meaning this so very, very much. What I'm going to say, I mean so much, that it drives me weird and sometimes to the edges of insanity; I love you.

I love you so much and I realize that sometimes, I can be a pain, and silly, and read into too many things, and let my bad side get the better of me, and although some think it's stupid to say stuff like this so randomly online [MeIncludedFunnilyEnough] The world- or deviantart deserve to know how much I love, cherish and care for you.

I Am Glad I Met You

~Sorrow-of-the-crow and ~CrimsonHonour you are and will always be the most influential people in my life, even arguably above my family. No matter what is going on in my life and how I am acting, you are always and hopefully will forever always be there. Without you too in my life.

I doubt I would be the way I am now. You've helped me cry, laugh, get angry, walk around our town in the middle of the night, I'd be nothing like I am right now without you, so thank you, thank you so much.

I Know We Barely Talk No More

~HannahLovesVictor, ~mimitakashi16, and ~RukiSacarie13 I still remember you, and all the fun times, the laughs and everything else we had together, the memories are still fresh in my mind, and yes, I've realized that yes, we barely talk anymore, we are unfortunately drifting away from one another, but I just want you to remember no matter how far we drift, I'll still remember you and smile at the memories.

I Want To Make This longer

But I really can't, just know that all of you who personally know me, speak to me, even you who comments me, mean so much to me, and that I'll always be there for each and every one of you if you'll let me, because you've all been there for me, or boosted my confidence, or made me smile.

I - W O U L D - N O T - B E - M E - W I T H O U T - Y O U
_{So thank you very much}